Lyrics

All songs written by Jeremy Porter  ©One To Give Music, BMI

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Night On The Town b/w Ain't My House Anymore Lyrics

1. Night On The Town
2. Ain't My House Anymore

Jeremy Porter - Party Of One Lyrics

1. Sidewalk Ends
2. Last Time I Saw You Happy
3. Not Like You're Mine
4. Hallmark Holiday
5. Dead On Your Feet
6. When September Passed Us By
7. Out Inside
8. The Turnaround
9. Hundred Bucks


Night On The Town

Saturday night and Iím acting normal, Iím taking my baby out
Our destination and plans are informal but I just canít tell her about

All the things that Iíve done and theyíre just so shameful so Iím hiding my lying away
Every day Is a bit more painful Seems the only way

Put on my best and cleanest threads but I couldnít be more down
Weíll raise a glass to no regrets but theyíll eventually come around

All the things I had will be taken from me, all the lies Iíve told exposed
Any weight I feel bearing on me is all deserved I know

She said "Hey, are you alright?"
Well what are you asking for?
Arenít I mister cheerful anymore?

I might not be the life of the party youíre looking for
But I can lie as good as anyone for sure

Everything comes to an end, everything gives way
I canít hold out, I canít pretend. I got something I need to say

Letís walk it off, letís talk a while. Let me see your hand
Just this once Iím coming clean. I hope youíll understand



Ain't My House Anymore

Wasting away on the side of the road in a bar where we used to play
Counting the ways and the things I was told and the reasons you gave me to stay

I can live with the feeling that I made the worst mistake of my life
But I miss those windows and I miss that door
And it ainít my house anymore

Can I stop by for an hour or two, say hi to the dog and the kid
Why the sudden interest? Well, I don't know. When I lived here I never did

I could'a been a better man, it's true, but I coulda, shoulda, wish i woulda did
But I'm not here to answer for
`cuz it ainít my house anymore

Sure I get lonely sometimes but Iím not looking over my back
Chasing every dream that I ever had down and seeing how they stack
Against what I I left behind and what I had before
What I hoped to find and what I left you for

Settle up, 2 barstools down, nothing left for me in here
Maybe see you next time I'm in town, endeavor to persevere

I can live with this ringing in my ears and these voices in my head
But I miss that smile and I'm still real sore
`cuz it ainít my house anymore



Sidewalk Ends

The sidewalk ends at your house Iím rappiní on your door
The cat says youíre not home Iíve been alone before
When I saw it in your eyes underneath the streetlight
Iíve been alone before but it never feels right

Saw a photograph or two, your Sunday picnic dress
It never feels right when you force me to confess
Was it yesterday, last year or a memory ago
I say Iím feeling fine but Iím not even so so

Picking me a flower or throwing me a line
Will I get paid by the hour, will I get paid on time?

Now the days melt like ice in the bottom of my glass
But before I down my drink I hadnít time to ask
Hey whatícha doing here now with a bum like me
Iím locked out of your house but I know I hold the key



Last Time I Saw You Happy

Well Iím watching it snow inside my head
Making up words you never said
Iím waitiní for a kickback to bail me out
But it doesnít seem to matter what the secret's about

Well we watch the sunrise as we scrap and fight
About toilet seats and left on lights
It was under your breath as you were out the door
You just donít know if you can take it any more

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go

Saturday night we were out with friends
Making believe and playing pretend
You with yours and me with mine
Ok, I guess so, whatever, fine

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go

You find it hard to swallow all the bitter pills that I have dealt
It wonít be fine tomorrow Ďcause youíre feeling worse than youíve felt before - to the core

So weíre giving up, weíre getting off this boat
Weíre cashing out while it barely floats
It was your reaction, but the blame is mine
Ok, I guess so, whatever, fine

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go



Not Like You're Mine

It's not like you're mine to say what's on your mind until you tell me
It's not always fine to hang it on the line until you let me

It's not a good day to say you're going away like you never left me
Decisions were made and prices were paid in spades and debts were let free

Well I don't live in Boston I was there to see some friends
And I'm not from Chicago nut I get there when I can
But Minneapolis is alot more like my home
It's not like you're mine to keep me hangin' on

The passage of time has scarred over all the lines on the pages between us
Itís been a few days it's too early to raise the flag - I don't think anyone's seen us
It's not a journey but a stumble to the floor
And Iím in a hurry but they're asking me for more
And I can't wait another thirty seven years
It's not like you're mine and worth all of these tears

And yesterday it was fantastic, but I'm not living in the past
That nostalgia sticks to you like gum that's on your shoe
And everrything went by so fast

I spent my afternoons beneath a shady tree
You spent all yesterday waiting there for me
But I've moved on from there, at least that's what I say
It's not like you're mine to let you get away

I got more regrets than I can count or understand
It's not like you're mine to let go of your hand



Hallmark Holiday

Said "I love you" on a Hallmark Holiday
Couldnít do it in a roundabout way
Just look inside to see the things I could never say

At your window Iím steaminí up the glass
Iím just obsessed with being part of your past
Iíll take you back now all you gotta do is ask

I had you tailed and your cell phone bugged
I got inside and hid beneath your rug
I stole your lipstick off of your favorite mug

Changed your sheets on a Wednesday morning
Changed your number on a Thursday night
Said take a left but I really should have taken a right

I changed your tire and I mended your fence
Made sure to show up at all of your events
Youíre in my future but to you Iím strictly past tense

To shake it up I dressed up like a clown
And just for kicks I tried to put you back down
Snuck up behind you but you never even turned around

Changed your sheets on a Wednesday morning
Left on Thursday for an early flight
Said youíre sorry but that really doesnít make it all right

Fell in love on a Hallmark holiday
Ask me nice but Iíll never go away
Just look inside to see the things I could never say



Dead on Your Feet

Youíre always looking for tomorrow when itís barely afternoon
Youíve gotten pretty far though, you might just be there soon

You got grubs in your lawn and a head full of songs
And a book full of stories that youíll never want to read

You got your culture in the movies and your fashion on your block
Outside the passers by are all just flying with the flock

But you had stars in your eyes and a closet full of lies
That you were every bit excited just to go and leave behind
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pays you back in kind

Now youíre dead on your feet but you canít admit defeat
And youíre busy looking for another way
Now youíre dead on your feet but you were never on the street
Even though thatís what you always say

You got a picture perfect view but if they really knew
They might not be so fast to take you back into their living rooms

Thereís no sign on the wall saying catch you if you fall
Never give them anything to change what they assume
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pauses or resumes

Is this the turning of the tide
Or the same old free ride

Another Monday woke up and another weekend gone
A new day to remember a long forgotten song

Youíre always looking for some answers that you never seem to find
Out your bedroom window in a world thatís left you far behind
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pays you back in kind



When September Passed Us By

Sheís an open book that needs reading twice
With an open ear for bad advice
Iím a sucker for a basket case
With an open wound and a pretty face

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

So together we were on our way
But it wasnít long before she said "hey,
This might come off a little tough
But your good intentions arenít quite enough"

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

Still buried down inside
Because we never really tried
When September passed us by

Makiní out in the parking lot
Now the last two weeks are shot
And we got something to pretend
When your parents think weíre studying

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

And I deserve another try
Because we never said goodbye
When September passed us by



Out Inside

Written by Randy Barrett and Jeremy Porter

Hey don't you know - That I was once an imbecile
It was quite a sight when we were up all night but we made it through

hey don't you know - I never even should'a tried
I dropped the pin when the ice got thin and I walked away as you let me in

Now I'm sittin in some club
Smokin' and tellin' lies
I guess my rep' is fried
I guess I'm out inside

Hey don't you know that you're the queen of Industry
You're stacked in black for the attack - and I'm on fire

Hey don't you know - there's more to this than camouflage
You'll chip a tooth if you tell the truth and you'll find more than you ever knew

They're all sitting in some room
Smokin' and tellin' lies
I guess my rep' is fried
I guess I'm out inside

Is that really your reaction or do you just need to vent
When we both know it was just for show but you ended up content
Dreams only last so long I guess I'll never wake again

I never even should'a tried
But I made it out alive
Now everybody's picking sides
And waiting for you to decide
Well I guess that's why I'm left out inside



The Turnaround

I'm in up to my feet in what's coming down the street
I got lost in yesterday

Empty chairs in empty rows and empty old mistakes
Whatís left to desecrate?

Hardly worth a second look
Hardly worth the toll it took
The turnaround's the hook
Whyíd you have to go that way?

I had to laugh during the aftermath
After a shower and a shave
I had to decide if I was wasting all my time
I wanted to leave but I chose to stay

Packin' up
For another go around
But at the bar I just talk it down

Singles Going steady
Double nickels on the dime
Maybe another time
I'm out of time

Hardly worth a second look
Hardly worth the toll it took
The turnaround's the hook
I hear itís all the rage

The turnaround's the hook
And I am not afraid



Hundred Bucks

What better place than the present to kick myself in the ass
Start makin' plans and shaking hands and gettin' somewhere fast
Time just crawls from under this rock when I got nowhere to go
It weighs so much when you're outta touch, gettin' nowhere slow

She said no offense to whiskey drinkers
I said none taken here
As long as you owe me a hundred bucks
You'll never disappear

I first took one for the team because I thought it might be fun
But after a couple dozen more I said God damn I'm done
A master plan from where I stand sounds just about the same
As lessons learned by taking turns at our favorite pinball game

She said pull yourself together boy
Stop crying in your beer
As long as you owe me a hundred bucks
You'll never disappear

She said wait a minute, started breaking down
But that's no way to keep me around
This is not the time to act that way
I'm the one who's messed up here
Let make this one perfectly clear
Save the drama for another day

Countin' up the friends I got and maybe some I don't
Then there's two or three I dream about ripping out their throats
But I've never been much good at math so it oughtta now make sense
I crawl back in when things get hot or a little too intense